i am going to the beach tomorrow.. i still haven't packed.. bad ryan... heh

i miss nick a lot.. i can't help it. i am in love!

Ryan <3

Nick is off to boot camp today... it makes me sad. i shall miss my beautiful baby Nick! i love you with all of my heart, i want you forever and always...

survey again... bored...

[ .001. ] First name: Ryan

[ .002. ] Last name: Lawler... ely hehe

[ .003. ] Nickname (s): Sexy Beast, Rae... Ryan

[ .004. ] Gender: girl

[ .005. ] Birthday: August 19, 1987

[ .007. ] Place of birth: Wheat Ridge, CO

[ .009. ] Hair color: Dark Brown

[ .010. ] Eye color: Brown.. yup dark brown

[ .011. ] Race: i have no clue.. at all...

[ .012. ] Nationality: USA

[ .013. ] Do you have braces: used to

[ .014. ] Is your hair short: no

[ .015. ] Languages spoken: English and a tad of spanish

[ .016. ] Current location: Fairmont, WV

[ .017. ] Zodiac sign: Leo

[ .018. ] Siblings: Patrick- 15

[ .019. ] Do you wear glasses or contacts: Glasses mostly, sometimes contacts

[ .020. ] Bad habits: procrastination

[ .021. ] Piercing(s) you have: ears (one in each)

[ .022. ] Piercing(s) you want: i dunno

[ .023. ] Tattoos you have: none

[ .024. ] Tattoos you want: dunno

[ .025. ] Today's date: Monday July 11th

[ .026. ] The time: 6:37

[ .027. ] Ready for a bunch more questions: Yup

Family

[ .028. ] mother's name: Nancy

[ .029. ] father's name: Charles

[ .030. ] step-parent's names :

[ .031. ] brother(s)'s name(s): Patrick

[ .032. ] sister(s)'s name(s): 

[ .033. ] favorite aunt: Aunt Judy or aunt lorraine

[ .034. ] favorite uncle: dont really have any so, i guess my step uncle Kevin

[ .035. ] favorite grandparent: Nana (and i like nick's mamaw and grandpa roger)

[ .036. ] worst relative: dunno them

[ .037. ] best relative: mommy

[ .038. ] do you get along with your parents: sometimes.. most of the time

[ .039. ] does anyone in your family understand you?: no way at all.. heh Nick is the closest thing to understanding me... heh

Pets

[ .040. ] do you have any pets: Yes

[ .041. ] what are their names: Pixie, Spud, Pip

[ .042. ] what kind of animals are they: Boxer, Birman cat, stray cat that we got from someone who is moving ack

School

[ .043. ] are you still in school: yeah

[ .044. ] if so, what school: Freshman at University of Tennessee

[ .045. ] future school(s): UT

[ .046. ] did you ever drop out: No

[ .048. ] favorite grade: 11

[ .049. ] least favorite grade: 10

[ .050. ] favorite subject: i dont know anymore

[ .051. ] least favorite subject: AP English ALL KINDS

[ .052. ] do/did you buy lunch or bring it: bought

[ .053. ] play any sports on the school's team: band, but i know you think it doesn't count

[ .054. ] favorite teacher: Ms. Pinnell

[ .055. ] least favorite teacher: i dunno

[ .056. ] favorite dance: dunno, i didn't enjoy too many of them.. they were okay, but none were very good

[ .057. ] favorite memory: WVU Honor Band, knowing nick... hehe

[ .058. ] least favorite dance: this past morp, thanks alot... shwa?

[ .059. ] least favorite memory: leaving Nick's house today... i love him soo much...

[ .060. ] most humiliating moment: I have had a lot of them... heh   maybe it was forgetting my pants when i went to a band competition heh maybe.. heh

Favorites

[ .061. ] number: 7

[ .062. ] clothing brand: dunno... i like shopping at Rue 21.. and body shop

[ .063. ] shoes: i dunno

[ .064. ] thing: nick.. heh... i mean his shirt

[ .065. ] tv show: don't have one

[ .066. ] sport: Equestrian and LAX

[ .067. ] vegetable: Carrots

[ .068. ] fruit: kiwi or strawberry

[ .069. ] movie: i dont know.. i dont have one

[ .073. ] bubble shakes: WTF?

[ .074. ] gum: eclipse winterfrost

[ .075. ] fish: hmmm i dunno... mommy no likey fish.. heh

[ .076. ] candy: hmmm, i dunno... i used to like snickers, but i dunno lots of kinds

[ .077. ] ice cream flavor: chocolate chip cookie dough

[ .078. ] color: blue

[ .079. ] season: fall

[ .080. ] holiday: Thanksgiving

[ .085. ] cereal: Capn Crunch ^_^

[ .086. ] thing in your room: My bed

[ .087. ] place to be: With Nick

[ .089. ] sandwich: foot long with roastbeef, pepperoni, provolone and black olives.. i love it.. hehe

[ .090. ] junk food: cheez- its

[ .091. ] overall food: potatoes or cheese something

[ .092. ] store: i dont have one

[ .094. ] fast food: Wendy's

[ .095. ] restaurant: Hibachi i guess...

[ .096. ] shape: friangle.. i mean triangle or maybe a circle

[ .097. ] time of day: Night

[ .098. ] pizza topping: Pepperoni

[ .099. ] way of getting caffeinated: Coke

[ .100. ] boys name: Bren

[ .101. ] girls name: Alexa

[ .102. ] mall: i dont know

[ .103. ] thing to do when you visit your "homeland": i dunno.. uh... i dunno

[ .105. ] board game: dont have one..

[ .106. ] card game: hate, spite, and malice..

[ .107. ] carz: subaru outback stationwagon

[ .108. ] music video: dont have one.. heh

[ .109. ] swear word: damn

[ .110. ] musical: the lion king heh... silly

[ .111. ] month: July

[ .112. ] cartoon character: dont have one

[ .113. ] radio station: dont have one

[ .114. ] song: tears in heaven

[ .115. ] letter: Y

[ .116. ] rock or rap: Rock

[ .117. ] rock or pop: Rock

[ .118. ] rock or r&b: Rock

[ .119. ] rap or r&b: R&B

[ .120. ] rap or pop: Rap

[ .121. ] rap or r&b: R&B I already answered this!

[ .122. ] rap or metal: Metal

[ .124. ] pop or metal: Metal

[ .125. ] r&b or metal: Metal

[ .126. ] linkin park or limp bizkit: Linkin Park

[ .127. ] tool or korn: Tool

[ .154. ] selena or jennifer lopez:

[ .155. ] love or lust: Love

[ .156. ] winter or summer: Winter

[ .157. ] spring or fall: Fall

[ .158. ] shakira or britney: Shakira

[ .159. ] garbage or no doubt: No Doubt

[ .160. ] friends or seinfeld: neither

[ .161. ] diamond or pearl: i dunno, eh...

[ .162. ] being HOT or COLD: Cold

[ .163. ] buffy or angel: neither

[ .164. ] dawson's creek or gilmore girls: oh i cant choose

[ .165. ] football or basketball: Football

[ .166. ] summer Olympics or winter Olympics: Winter

[ .167. ] skiing or snowboarding: i dunno how to snowboard but i like it.. heh

[ .168. ] bath or shower, morning or night: Shower, Morning

[ .169. ] black or white: Black

[ .170. ] orange or red: Red

[ .171. ] yellow or green:Green

[ .172. ] purple or pink: Pink

[ .173. ] abecrombie or hollister: hollister

[ .175. ] inside or outside: Depends

[ .176. ] weed or alcohol: Alcohol

[ .177. ] cell phone or pager: Cell

[ .178. ] pen or pencil: ooooh i dunno depends on what it is

[ .179. ] powerpuff girls or charlie's angels: Charlie's Angels

[ .180. ] scooby doo or din dino: Scooby!

[ .181. ] old school pink ranger or old school yellow ranger: yellow

[ .182. ] lizzie mcguire or that's so raven: lizzie mcguire

[ .183. ] tattoos or piercings: Tattoos

[ .184 ] pink or red: pink no red... eh

Private life

[ .186. ] do you have a boyfriend or girlfriend: Yes

[ .187. ] do you have a crush: My boy Nick

[ .188. ] do you love anyone right now: Yes Yes Yes Yes Yes Yes Yes oh and....YES!!!!

[ .189. ] have you ever been in love: I am in love

[ .190. ] number of girls/boys you've kissed: Nick is who matters... i love you baby! <3

[ .192. ] how many hearts of have you broken: a couple

[ .193. ] how many people broke your heart?: one or two... i dunno, it hurts to know that nick may have loved someone else before... i hate that... i am sad

[ .194. ] best quote to sum up love: you think you know, but you have no idea... yup...

[ .195. ] so what is your bf/gf/crush like: Amazing, Beautiful, Intelligent, Funny, Goofy, Perfect, wonderful, smooth, talented, loving, my one and only! <3

[ .196. ] first thing you notice about the opposite sex: Eyes...because you can tell what kind of person they are by their eyes

[ .197. ] best weight for the opposite sex: bigger than me... nick sized heh

[ .198. ] best first date location: The beach during a sunset

[ .199. ] best first kiss location: Anywhere

[ .200. ] do you go by looks or personality: Personality

[ .201. ] ever kiss a friend: yeah

[ .202. ] are you still friends: Yeah

[ .203. ] do you smoke: no

[ .204. ] do you smoke weed: Hell no

[ .205. ] ever trip on acid: No

[ .206. ] how about a little: No

[ .207. ] crack, heroin, anything else: Hell no

[ .208. ] if you could change your appearance, how could you change it?: i dont think i should... maybe i would get rid of unwanted hair and stuff like that.. heh

[ .210. ] can ex's be friends: Yes

[ .211. ] internal conflicts: A few

[ .212. ] how many pillows do you sleep with: lots maybe 6

[ .213. ] are you a virgin: No

[ .214. ] if no, when was the last time you got some: uh... hehe Saturday.. heh

Would You Ever

[ .215. ] bungee jump: Yep

[ .216. ] sky dive: Yes

[ .217. ] swim with dolphins: yupper do

[ .218. ] scuba dive: Yes

[ .221. ] turn your back on your friends for personal gain: NO

[ .222. ] kill yourself: dont think so... i may die if nick does but i dunno

[ .223. ] race around your neighborhood: dont wanna

[ .224. ] drink pee: icky

[ .225. ] lie for personal gain: Probly not but maybe

[ .226. ] lie to your parents: yeah....sometimes just to get them to leave me alone

[ .227. ] walk up to a stranger and kiss them: Nope, my lips will only touch Nick's from now on

[ .228. ] be an exotic dancer: probably not

[ .229. ] walk out of a restaurant without paying: NO

[ .230. ] streak: maybe

People You Know

[ .231. ] best friend: Nick Ely, amanda dzielski

[ .232. ] known longest: dunno... i dont know... maybe Joey.. he is the one i still talk to

[ .233. ] who drives you insane after a while: My brother

[ .234. ] can be superman: The Don

[ .235. ] can play the guitar by ear: Nick.. cuz he is hawt like that

[ .236. ] can play the piano by ear: Evan, and me.. hehe

[ .237. ] slowest: i dunno, they havent met me yet.. heh

[ .239. ] craziest: The Don.. .heh yeah

[ .240. ] loudest: Aaron or dani

[ .241. ] shyest: Laura

[ .243. ] can always make you laugh: Nick

[ .244. ] best eyes: Nick

[ .246. ] most athletic: not my friends.. heh... uh i guess either nick or boyscout heh

[ .247. ] sex symbol: nick is, but I AM too.. hehe lots of people want me, but only nick can have me hehe...

[ .248. ] hot tempered: most of my ex-bfs

[ .249. ] most impatient: dunno...

[ .250. ] shortest: amanda

[ .251. ] tallest: hmm i think Mykael or Jon

[ .252. ] talented: Evan is neato

[ .253. ] best singer: Paige

[ .255. ] nicest: nick... to me at least

[ .256. ] best personality: Nick

[ .257. ] online the most: Saffy heh ME

Have You Ever

[ .258. ] flashed someone: not in public... but uh yeah

[ .259. ] told the person you liked how you felt: Every day

[ .260. ] been to michigan: No

[ .261. ] gotten really REALLY wasted: no

[ .262. ] gone to jail or juvi: No

[ .263. ] skateboarded: no

[ .264. ] skinny dipped: no

[ .265. ] stolen anything: Nope

[ .266. ] fallen asleep in the movie theatre: Yes

[ .267. ] went to go shopping, only to find you had no money of you: Yuppers

[ .268. ] hit someone in the head with a snowball: Oh yea

[ .270. ] cooked (well): yup

[ .271. ] kissed someone of the same sex: No

[ .273. ] failed a class: Nope

[ .274. ] gone on vacation without adult supervision: No

[ .275. ] been to a concert: Yup

[ .276. ] been to another country: canada and mexico

[ .277. ] talked back to an adult: Yup

[ .278. ] got pulled over: yup, state trooper, red light... heh i didnt get in trouble at all hehe

[ .279. ] got in an accicent: small ones not my fault when damage was done

[ .280. ] burned a cd: yup

[ .281. ] given money to a homeless person: Yep

[ .282. ] lost money: Yea

[ .283. ] cried to get out of trouble: probably

[ .284. ] kissed a friend's brother or sister: uhh

[ .285. ] kissed a brother or sister's friend: i dunno

[ .286. ] dropped something on the floor that you were cooking and let someone eat it anyways?: Nope

What Did You Do

[ .297. ] your last birthday: played in the band at freshman orientation, then went to band practice, and broke up with someone i wasn't even really dating... eh not fun.. then i cried ( i dated him later on)

[ .298. ] yesterday: Spent time with the guy that i love

[ .299. ] last weekend: spent lots of time with nick

[ .300. ] christmas: stayed here, was very emotional and hated life, not cool...

[ .301. ] thanksgiving: ate food, hung out with my cousin for a bit.

[ .302. ] new year's: worked on a drawing for my college entrance portfolio... it's a good thing too.. i am going there this fall...

[ .304. ] easter: church with family, then to the Fairmont Field Club

[ .305. ] valentine's day: Stayed in bed all day wishing I had someone I could call my own, wondering if i was stupid for asking bren to the dance (damn i wish i had asked nick instead)

First

[ .306. ] thoughts when waking up: Nick....

[ .307. ] kiss (ever): well it was Ernest

[ .308. ] kiss (with significant other): Nick is the only one for me... it was on June 2, 2005 his birthday.. then he proposed later that day

[ .309. ] screen name: LilRyanL

[ .310. ] self purchased album: dunno

[ .311. ] enemy/bully: dont really have one

[ .312. ] big trip: dunno... i have no clue

[ .314. ] word: kitty

[ .315. ] toy: moo cow... heh

Right now

[ .316. ] what are you eating: Nothing

[ .317. ] what are you drinking: nothing

[ .318. ] what are you wearing: nick's shirt... it smells like him

[ .319. ] any shoes on: No

[ .320. ] hair: messy

[ .321. ] listening: nothing

[ .322. ] talking to anyone: Nope

[ .323. ] sleepy yet: Yes, because I have been crying

Just Answer It

[ .324. ] are you a vegetarian: No

[ .325. ] do you like cows: Yea

[ .326. ] are you a b****: No

[ .327. ] are you artistic: yup

[ .328. ] do you write poetry: Yes

[ .329. ] are you a fast runner: Yeah

[ .330. ] can you ski: yup

[ .331. ] are you british: No

[ .332. ] do you want to spear britney: No way ICK

[ .334. ] did you ever give barbie a haircut: no

[ .335. ] would you eat mac & cheese with hot dogs in it: yes

[ .336. ] do you think disney creators were on acid when they made alice in wonderland: Possibly

[ .337. ] are you straight: Yes

[ .338. ] are you stupid, insane, and another physically handicapped: Insane....maybe

[ .339. ] are you fat: Not even close

[ .340. ] are you skinny: yup, like 97 lbs.

[ .341. ] are you short: yup i guess... 5'2"

[ .343. ] do you own a hot pink shirt: yup

The Last

[ .354. ] website you visited: dunno

[ .358. ] movie seen: Labyrinth

[ .360. ] time you sang out loud: today

[ .362. ] thing you downloaded onto your computer: dunno

[ .363. ] person you talked to: Mom

[ .365. ] person you f-ed: Nick

[ .366. ] person you cried to: Myself/my mommy

[ .367. ]person you called: charles

[ .368. ] person who called you: (well dani called back) Nick called to actually talk... i love you baby!

well there ya go... ! <3

hello... i am writing a new entry cuz i wanna... look pictures... i love nick...

look me... my first day on the job...

i love nick.. .ehhh byes

Ryan <3

That is right!!!! I am making a new post... woot for me.. i am supposed to be doing my English work, loads of laundry and thank you notes.. along with showering, eating and maybe calling people on the phone... whoopee.. the cats just got in another fight... stupid cats...

I want to see my Nick... i miss him but he is in a motorcycle safety class this whole weekend. ALL DAY LONG!!! literally... I am working on my English crap like mad for a week straight, constantly reorganizing things and it isn't good enough, done is the only good thing for my mom... okay well

I love Nick! <3

Ryan <3